This thing called LIFE.

So, I was thinking. Oh, wait I have to say hi, so hi it’s me again and this week or today to be exact I was thinking of this life thing. Do you have to get a career that you love or get a career then learn to love it? Where I’m from (Kenya) you found a job then learned to love it, mainly because we don’t have a lot of option over there. This fact helped me choose and stick to the career I decided to chase, back in Kenya we didn’t have a lot of options in what we could do and ART isn’t considered a career to most families, a doctor, an engineer, a pilot, a teacher, working at a big company and this is just to mention but a few things that are considered to be real jobs. Deep down I understand and empathize with parents who push their kids to study things that they might not like and I get it. So what is a career and is it all just about money, is it considered a career if it doesn’t make money, and why not. When I make art, one of the things that run in my head is, “does this look professional?” but what is professional? Is it how polished your work is? Is it measured by the number of likes you get (which is based on an algorithm) why does it feel like nobody ever likes your work even though they tell you they love it, why do we always feel like we have to push ourselves to be great, why is it that a lot of people want to be rich, I bet they’ve never asked themselves “I wanna be rich, but do I even deserve it?” like why do we feel entitled to all the riches in the world, both the lazy and the hardworking hope for the same thing. Why is nothing ever guaranteed, life is a gamble from the second millions and millions of sperms, one of them carrying your DNA fight for a shot to experience this thing called life. Once we get here, the same factors apply, everything is still a gamble from the parents you have, some people are born to stable parents other to disturbed parents, some rich parents, some poor parents, others one parent others two and others none, some are unlucky to be born to parents who smoke and drink religiously, some are born in unfortunate countries where war is an ongoing thing, some are born to famine and drought, and that’s just to mention a few. Then after that, you have to pray to God that you have a strong heart and mindset to handle the world and all of this is predicated to the type of childhood you had which is another gamble of its own. When you finally come of age and pick something you wanna do with your life, you have to pick strategically because you’re gonna be doing this for a long time and there’s a chance it might not succeed which sucks, BUT THAT’S LIFE, so they say. What if you lose your career? What if it fails? But also, what if it succeeds that should be a good thing, but it is really a good thing, was it worth all the sacrifices you made. You worked your ass off for your children but they’re too young to get it so in their heads “daddy/ mommy was never home to advise me when I needed guidance on the friends I should hang out with, now one of that friend convinced me to go rob a store and the store manager shot me dead,” now you just sacrificed all your life for the future of a child who’s life got cut short, so was it really worth it. Personally, I think just trying is worth it, whether it works out in the end or not mainly because trying leads to a success and a fail percentage while not trying only leads to only a fail percentage, at least that’s how I look at it. Financial freedom is something that we all hope for but only a few of us get it fully because the more money you get the more the expenses tend to be. Sometimes I wonder if what I’m doing is the right thing or if I’m just mining in the dark and hoping to strike gold, deep down I know I’m doing the right thing but when I look around me sometimes it feels like even though it’s the right thing I should maybe switch or do something else, but I never give in to these thoughts and I thank the maker for this type of mentality. Money doesn’t buy happiness; it pays the BILLS though.