A Feeling.

Sometimes I feel like I’m a nobody and it sucks. Mostly happens when I feel like I’m not productive, back in my head I just feel like there’s someone out there who’s working harder than me. Then I begin to ask myself “why does everything good in life come with a struggle? Why can’t I just get what I want.” As humans this is what we are told to believe, I’m still trying to understand why is this? WHY DOES EVERYTHING GOOD IN LIFE COME WITH A STRUGGLE. I’m trying to understand it fully, not just in a shallow way. Makes it so that when something comes easy to you, you automatically believe it’s not worth it, why is this? I think that’s just how the universe works; you can’t get anything on a silver platter they say. I think about people who do burglaries, like rob houses at gun points, sometimes even leaving fatal injuries or even death to the victims. Are these people who do this considered hard workers? I feel like there are a lot of ways to look at it; 1. they’re risking their lives to acquire something, in the wrong way, 2. They’re cowards who don’t wanna work hard the right way, 3. They’re taking the easy way out. I feel like either way you look at it, it’s all hard work by today’s standards because in today’s day and age a lot of things are being normalized that success is measured by how big your wallet is, it’s to the point where it doesn’t even matter how you make your money and it’s weird for lack of better words. Look at bitcoin, for instance, the thing is just about making money, MONEY MONEY MONEY, makes me wonder, maybe I’m having these thoughts because I don’t have that much money, and I just don’t get it. Like for real, why is the purpose of life financial success, it’s not even financial freedom for a lot of people anymore.