When Doubt kicks in.

Art should be used as a mode to express one’s self, I’m in a dilemma right now with this portfolio thing. Every credible person I listen to is saying something different. Some are saying, “You should cater your portfolio to the company you want to work for and use their style.” Others say ‘’You should do what you love because in a case where you’re hired and now are expected to perform a task, it’s hell if you don’t like doing what you’re required to do.’’ I agree with the latter idea but then, your work will receive only but a few eyes. Sometimes I wonder, will anybody ever see my work and think it’s cool? will it make them happy? Every time somebody says my art is cool, there is this voice in my head that tells me “They’re saying that because they’re just trying to be nice.” I know I shouldn’t think this way but for me, this is one of those things that you just can’t help. I remember when I decided to make a piece of art every day back in April 2nd, 2020. I did it because I just realized how privileged I was to live in America where anybody can achieve, “THE AMERICAN DREAM” and so the race started, it’s amazing how I never burned out or even think twice about turning on my drawing tablet every morning, recording my journey and sharing it with the world. I don’t create art to be successful financially or anything, that’s a secondary goal, the primary goal is to build something for myself. Something that I can look back to and show my kids (that’s if I have any kids in the future, which I’m hoping to have someday) and show them that it’s possible to chase your dreams and achieve them.